for so many years...

I only thought about myself.
The lie was that I thought I was thinking about others~~
But in reality, I wasn't.

I was a really nice girl who lived in a really nice home and had a really nice family and went to really nice parties and dressed really nice and had a really nice church and really nice friends and a really nice education.

And all my really niceness has caused thousands of people to know nothing about JESUS.

Because I didn't think it was really nice of me to tell them about him because it was up to them to figure out and because I had enough to take care of for myself and my family to stay really nice.

Hmmm.

The trick of the enemy.

All this time I thought I was a really nice person... and to the little kids living 5 minutes drive away from my house who are hungry and cold and scared I in a really nice way did NOTHING.

And for my friends who were just like me living a really nice lifestyle I said NOTHING.

And now that I know better, I ask forgiveness JESUS because I realize I wasn't really nice allowing so many for so long to not know YOU.

And it's not a really nice feeling to know that there are so many really nice people going to hell.

And it's not a really nice feeling to know that there are so many really nice people who have watched me be really nice but are still hungry, cold, alone and desperate.

Please forgive me really nice people.

My really nice smiles aren't what are going to get you to say the words "JESUS, forgive me, come into my heart, I believe in YOU, thank YOU for what YOU did for me, let my life be used by YOU, thank you for forgiving my sins, AMEN."

And in a really nice way I ask you all to do better for the ONE who died for you in a not really nice death.

PLEASE don't waste 36 years like I did!

Nice doesn't even describe the feeling of being used by the LORD and an answer to a lonely, hungry child's prayer.

My niceness didn't get me a ticket to heaven or another person's to heaven. And being nice to so many but doing and saying NOTHING wasn't very Christian of me knowing so many people are going to hell... even the nice ones.

Don't let satan tell you otherwise.
IT'S NOT ABOUT JUST BEING NICE and HAVING A REALLY NICE TIME!